Bitter end

Ok I know I had said that I will be back only on 3rd  dec after exams....but you know how this blog bug works...bloody..just could control myself  from not logging in here...U understand rite :-P

"True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it is lost"- Charles Caleb Colton

Friends they are the one with whom you share things,fight with them,pull their leg,,,plan your vacation and do many more things...but the  most important thing you feel secure when you are along with them...

When It came to me I have had a bunch of friends from different part of my life...and luckily i have got some friend who are the best thing happened to me.
But there are some friends with whom things have changed...though the fact that i have shared some of the best memories with them..

Recently i spoke to a person who happened to be very close to me at one time [who am i kidding for years we knew each other]...but that person is no more in same terms with me..Ne ways it was start of this year that things went wrong and we stopped talkin to each other...

Now I am a person who doesn't  give up on my friends very easily[people who know me know this fact],But still there was a point when i thought that there was no sense carrying forward that friendship...I hated to do that more coz the she knew that it was her fault coz of which we were in that situation..

Ne ways when things went bitter...i wanted that the person should suffer to hell....

So there i was talkin to that person last month and I could understand from the her sounds that things were not that good.I did try asking her as to wat had happened.
Some how i thought getting to know that thing wer'nt good at her end would make me feel good..But No it dint happen..
Some how it felt weird I knew.felt sorry for her..coz i knew that there was no one to stand by her during  this period..

I kept on telling myself that I should be happy,but i just could feel that way...thats when I realised yes things did go wrong..but I dint want her to suffer...may be coz i cherished the memories and that weighted more that the thought of some one suffering..

I remember that day coz  i prayed to god  for that friends happiness...

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Exams the so called dreaded word that every student hates to hear...remember the time when u must have heard people saying
the famous F word...similarly des days people forbid saying the E word..

When it comes to studies and exams we came up with all kinda excuse for not studying....
When I entered this class i though now that we have grown up and in a position where we are supposed to me responsible for our actions..We will never give reasons for not studying and not shy away from books..But some how i guess I was  wrong..The
nearer the exams came the more reasons we came up with for not studying.Just today I was sitting in the library i saw the bunch of my class mates going through a n nos of books..i was wondering...what in the hell made them go though so many books..
I could see the tension mounting and with each passing day people became more serious about exams...

As for me I was in the same boat as they were even i was going through the same tension the same amount of anxiety...only
difference that may be is I knew this wont be the last exams that I will be giving[3 more sem to go for my masters] and it wont be the last time i would be taking a book in my hand to study.

Any ways this though made the picture pretty clear in front of me...Hope fully as last time , this time too my efforts  would pay out rich dividend..
So this will be my last post for this month...will be back in actions after dec 3..thats my last day of exams..

:-)